worried, stressed out, pressured

three words that describe how i am feeling at this moment.
because of the loads of school works from merciless professors. (sob)
i am not exaggerating when i said that i have loads to do.
i think i and the whole class as well will be needing buckets of energy drinks and cups of coffee starting the first school day of 2008.
good luck shashi for the big year ahead!
may you not forget that tomorrow is New Year's Eve.
smile still!:)

i can feel it! hmmmm...

Yabadabadeeeeeh! i finally finished wrapping my gifts for dearest love-ones. they look rushed and a bit messy,but they're still gifts people! and oh, i've done the wrapping thing for 4 hours. how about some appreciation for the effort?hohoho (the santa laugh)

speaking of gifts, my sister thinks that i spoil surprises! how right she is! hoho.. because i can't stop myself from revealing what's inside the christmas wrappers. i guess i am not really a big fan of surprises. so i told someone lines like. "You're getting boxer shorts this Christmas!", "What color of pouch would you like?" and "Ooops, eto na 'yung gift ko sa'yo na bracelet, babalutin ko na." and my laughing mom even tried it on her already! was that so grinchy of me? sorry but i think it's funny. hoho

Christmas is just a few hours away! i wish that you guys will be with whoever you want to be with on Christmas Day. have noche buena with your family, sing christmas carols with friends or just cuddle up with a special someone. it depends on how you want it spent. the important thing is that you celebrate Christmas Day exactly the way you want it. And of course, don't forget about Christ.. because tomorrow is His day!

Have a Merry Christmas everyone!
~hugs and love from shashi~
:)

KUYAs

KUYAs can be real pains in the ass! i'm glad i did not have one.

so you see, my bestfriend/neighbor/cousin/soul sister and i just got home from a birthday party a block away from our homes. we were still having our rubik's cube 101 when some of her guy friends told us that her brother told them to tell my bestfriend that she should be home before he does. or else, all hell breaks loose.

i know how terrified my bestfriend is of her kuya. so we reluctantly got up from our seats already decided that we are going home. on our way, very unfortunately, we came face-to-face with her brother. there we were in the middle of the road at the middle of the night enduring his biting words.

"uwi pa ba yan ng matinong babae? palibhasa hindi kayo sinasabihan ng mga magulang niyo," blah-blah-blah. though a bit dizzy from the wine i had, i swear to God i heard the PI phrase. i stopped myself from answering back because after all, he is still years older than me. ever since we were kids we were taught to respect the words of the elders. secondly, the big great brother was drunk. it was the booze talking. and thirdly, there were people watching the scene his brother had uncaringly created. on the street was her kuya's barkada and our guy friends who were gentlemen enough to walk us home. imagine how humiliated my bestfriend was.

i am doing this blog because i am so pissed of what had happened. i am pissed that i can't do anything to take back the words of her kuya that hurt my bestfriend so much. while i am doing this blog i can imagine her crying so helplessly in her room. this was not the first time that she had received stinging remarks from her kuya.

well kuya, to answer your question: yes it is already past midnight. but it does not mean that we are not matinong babae anymore! we were just girls having fun. we know we are more than safe in that party because we are in the company of our second cousins and friends. it's not everyday that we do this kind of thing. yes i had several shots of wine but i am in total control of myself. and for your information, your sister was just sitting down there talking and laughing with the rest of us. i want you to know that you are so unfair! i hope to God you realize tomorrow when you are in the proper state of your mind that you are very very wrong. it's too much to wish that you'll apologize.

on the other hand, some kuyas can be real angels. i was lying down in my bed thinking about what had happened when i received a text message from another guy cousin (kuya#2) who was with the drunk one (kuya#1) when the commotion happened. kuya#2 apologized for the way kuya#1 acted. he said that kuyas are just like that, that kuya#1 do have a point somehow. he just had a different way demonstrating his point. he said that they were just trying to protect the family. i understand, because that's what you have to endure when you live in the province, in a very small barrio, where everyone knows what everyone is doing. kuya#2 also told me that he understands about our having fun but it really is very late, and that we have to set limits in everything we do. you see? both kuyas have the same concerns. they just have a different way of expressing it. if only you could try doing that!

kuya#1: if, by any chance, you read this entry, i meant all the words i said. i hope you reflect on it.

BIG SISTER turns 23 on the 23rd

hey guys! tomorrow is my big sister's 23rd birthday. you're not invited because we do not have a celebration naman!hehe.. i bought her a birthday card and i want the world to see what i want to tell her before she does. she does not know that i blog so i think my little surprise is safe.


Dear Ate,

Happy 23rd birthday! Wait two days more for my gift to you. :)
Thank you for everything that you do for me, for us.
I can not thank you enough for those.
Kapag nakatapos na ko and may work na, ako naman ang babawi sa inyo. You'll not have only one gift for your birthday and Christmas Day anymore.hehe..
I am so happy na nagiging closer tayo as we grow older. Thank you for letting your defenses down and for letting me in. Ever since we're kids, I've always wanted the two of us to share stories and secrets. And now we do. Thank you.
My wish for you is a man who will be perfect for you in every way. Ipinagdadasal ko na yon ng mataimtim, namin ni Nanay Saning.hehe.. But please do not marry yet.hehe
I also wish that all your wishes be granted.
I'll always look up to you Big Sister!
I love you so very much!
Happy Birthday. God bless you in everything you do.

3ECO Christmas Party (12.19.2007)

believe it or not, the morning of paskuhan day we still had a long exam on Psychology. such a spoilsport. it's no surprise if i fail that, because my mind was already set for partying!



~the Christmas Party!~
it was more of a salo-salo of the whole class. pika-pika. everyone's to bring any kind of food.
*puto&kutsinta from our group*chocolates*nuggets*pasta*tuna*siomai*fried rice*donuts* and more!

parlor games, of course!
*trip to jerusalem for the boys* winner: Dennis
*paper dance by pairs* which i joined. i was paired, or shall i say, i paired myself, with our handsome dean's lister Papu:) winners:Paola&Cheydi
*cake-puto-donut eating contest* winner: el presidente Maica!
*the bring me contest* winners: Alie&the unbeatable Prince!
lotsa pictures.
visit http://sharry08.multiply.com/photos/album/16/
:)

Paskuhan 2007

December 19, 2007.

the most awaited bonggang bonggang paskuhan sa USTe!

it amazes me to think that it's my 3rd paskuhan already.

if everything goes well (and i hope to God everything will!) it's going to be my last paskuhan next year as a kolehiyala. *sniff sniff*

anyway, i could always crash in.

yesterday's fireworks was as breathtaking as always.

it was shorter though.

and it would be much much wonderful if i had someone to watch it with - like my friends!

because shashi got lost in the crowded field!

poor me. so lost. so alone.

after some time, i finally found them and i was like a kid who went running to her parents after being lost at the mall.

i sticked to their sides from then on.

took pictures.

walked around.

sang with Parokya ni Edgar.

exchanged goodbyes and greetings with friends and classmates.

then went home alone but happy, and with hurting feet.

:)