on this day, (I think) God wants me to know...

... that everyday is about making the best out of all bad circumstances. And that HE loves me ever so dearly. :)

my bebepots

Kids drive me nuts, in an amazing kind of way. :) I am constantly surprised by how unbelievably smart they are becoming. I noticed this with my cousins' kids, my pamangkins, my lovely bebepots They ask questions you would really have to think hard before answering, "Bakit pa ginawa ni God ang mga pating kung masama naman pala sila?" Sometimes, they give practical answers you never even thought of, or comments you just don't know how to react upon. "Sabi, pag daw ang babae nag-inom, mabubuntis." Nasamid na lang ako! And their confidence is inspiring. Just this afternoon, I was having a conversation with my niece Kristel. She was telling me about her crush. And I asked her: "Eh alam ba ng crush mo na crush mo siya?" She said"Oo! Sinabi ko!" The 6-year-old girl said it with all the confidence in the world. Way to go baby girl!

How do they do it? Babies, they don't even try, but they can make my day with just a smile or a bababa, dadada. They say the funniest things without meaning to. Like when I was teaching 1-year-old Dwayne of the alphabet. Apple. Ball. Mingming! And by that, ladies and gentlemen, he means Cat. =D

How i love these bratty lovely cutie beautiful kids!

about being a small-town girl

I should have lied. I am good at it, why in the world did it not occur to me at that moment?! This afternoon, I went to request for a cedula from our brgy. I was surprised when she asked me how much my monthly salary is. I asked if she really needed to know. Yes. Without thinking twice, I said it, the amount. And the cedula cost me a lot more than it should have if I just told a little lie. darn. It's not the amount I paid (err, it was too pala.) More than that, I think it cost me some of my most-valued privacy too. I did not like the reaction she had when she learned of how much I make. One of the things I hate about being raised in a small town where people talk and people care, more than you want them to. Haaay.

26 years and counting :)

It's Mama and Papa's 26th wedding anniversary! Yey!! Parang a few posts ago, it was only their 25th. That says how fast time really goes and how lazy a blogger I've been. Anyways. . .

Happy Anniversary to my favorite couple and whose coupling resulted to my existence! nyahahahahay how about we forget I just said that. =D

My parents are not perfect, but they're a great couple, not to mention also the best parents. They are the reason why I am a believer of love and soulmates, and of growing old (and growing deaf) together. =) When I talk about Mama, I also mean Papa. They are like bread and butter, Simon and Garfunkel, tokwa and boyba! I mean, they are always together. They don't say it, but they are each other's best friend, forever. BFF yikeeee!

Papa was not the kind who shows affection. In fact, I never heard him say I love you to Mama or make lambing with her. Not that I would like to see them doing exactly that in front of me. I mean they could just do it in their room, and close the door please! ;) As I was saying, Papa was never outspoken with his feelings for Mama, but what he lacks in words, he makes up with his chivalrous acts. There was this one time when I went to the mall with the two of them, Mama was to buy a blouse for herself. She had chosen several pieces, tried each one on her, and would go out of the fitting room to ask both of us if it's good or not. To make the long story short, it took her so long before she finally chose to purchase ONE piece of clothing. Women! hehe. I was already bored out of my wits and I wonder how Papa was able to wait up on her like that. I asked him. And he said, without any trace of irritation, "Palagi yan ganyan katagal pumili." Me: "Buti di ka naiinis." And then he said jokingly but I knew in my heart he meant it "Eh kung hindi ko ba mahal eh." Aaaaaaw! You chubby cute little man! I guess this is why Mama had told Ate and I several times already "Pag nag-asawa kayo, humanap kayo ng kagaya ni Papa." All those times she said it, I saw the love in her eyes.

It is truly an honor to be the daughter of these two pure-hearted individuals. Even when they get into each others nerves sometimes, I know they couldn't and wouldn't let anger get in between them for so long. I pray to God that they will have a lot more happy and healthy years together and I hope for my future children to witness it too. <3

Happy Anniversary and I love you love you love yooooou both!

A River Runs Through It

I am such a genius! I figured out a way on how to keep people from seating beside me in a bus. This is how you do it. Sit the saleslady-way, stare outside the window and wear that so-lost-in-thought face complete with a little frown and sad-looking eyes. I just did that on my way home from Edsa to Makati. No one dared to ask for the vacant seat beside me. Hah who's the man?! Yun lang, I almost got a stiff neck and nearly missed my stop if it weren't for the traffic light that turned red. I'm gonna do it again tomorrow. :D

Change topic!

A conversation with a loved-one made me remember this line from the movie I watched a long time ago, A River Runs Through It.


"Why is it the people who need the most help... won't take it?"

". . . For it is true we can seldom help those closest to us. Either we don't know what part of ourselves to give or, more often than not, the part we have to give is not wanted. . . But we can still love them - we can love completely without complete understanding. "



So true. ;( It's sad to know that someone you love dearly is unhappy, and it's even sadder when he/she refuses to let you in. Heartbreaking.

What do I do?

a thoughtful Sunday night

It's already the month of March! yey! These days, how quick time goes makes me happy. Maybe I'm bored. Maybe I'm not entirely too happy with my job. Or maybe, I don't know. This kid's just a little confused. It's wrong to feel this way and I would very much love to snap out of this kachuchuan. Then I remembered how I was able to surpass some problems and some loneliness I felt from the past. I had things to look forward to. That's what I'm gonna do!

Tomorrow: I am looking forward to a sumptuous breakfast cooked by my favorite chefs - Mama & Papa. This shall get me through the day.

Next week: I look forward to celebrating their 26th wedding anniversary!

Next month: I shall look forward to my 21st birthday.

Next next month: to outings - Batangas, Coron, Pagudpud! Friends, these are not just plans, okay okay? :)

Every last week of the month: Look forward to paydays!

Every weekend: I shall look forward to what new words or new tricks my adorable bebepots (my pamangkins) have to say or do. <3


I feel a little better now. :) From this night forward, whenever I feel tired and bored and pressured and annoyed, I will be forward-looking girl again. Hey I have plans! Just breathe in, breathe out, laugh it off, be inspired with these plans and then be alright. That's the attitude! (me uplifting my own spirit) ;p