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Happy first month to my blog! :)

NARROW GATE

this morning i've been to YFC Cluster Assembly which we have every 4th or last week of the month. like every assembly i thoroughly enjoyed it lalo na 'yung activity/game namin - NARROW GATE. i could recall na nilaro na yun sa Pinoy Big Brother Season 2. i don't know how they called it then. the game works like this: there were strings na itinali sa gilid ng mga place na makakaform ng parang web. all of the group members dapat makakatawid dun without touching the strings. kapag sumayad everyone na nakatawid na will do it all over again. we were ten in the group. the first two times were palpak kase sumayad sa string. i was ecstatic when we first made it through the string. then came the second, the third and so on and so forth. i was the 6th person. medyo nakakakakaba kase baka mahulog ka and you might hit your head, nakakahiya kase you have to be lifted by the brothers for you to get to the other side pero all in all, it was a fun fun fun activity. both teams were trying their bestest. in the end, wala din naman nanalo kase the last person na tatawid can't make it na hindi gagalaw 'yung strings. i remember that it was sam milby who was the last guy to do that sa pbb. he amazingly jumped through it like a dolphin jumping through hoops. wala naman samin makakagawa nun, so that's how the game ended, walang panalo pero i still think that we're the better team! hehe.. go group 2! sana next assembly mas madami na maka-attend so it'll be more exciting! god bless. . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHACHUNG AND HARISHNA! :)
xoxoxo

from Sampaloc to Tambo!

feeling! haha. last Sunday, while Ate and i were watching KC Concepcion's special episode in Ch2, entitled: From Paris to Pinas, i told her that after my graduation from college, gagawa din ako ng special ko. Mine will be FROM SAMPALOC TO TAMBO, or more specifically, FROM PRUDENCIO TO TAMBO.
'prudencio' - where my dorm is located
'tambo' - my home in cavite
haha. why not coconut? watch out for SHASHI's SPECIAL oke? coming soon in Ch 4657890..
;)

NGARAG

NGARAG - adj; "term used to describe someone who's having a busy day/s at nagmumukha ng losyang"
"haggardness"

perfect word to describe me these last few days! at yan ay dahil sa kangotngotan ko na tumunganga at magpabanjing-banjing last weekend when i have an IMPORTANT paper to do. tsk tsk tsk, di na natuto... hindi pa naman 'to basta-bastang paper at hindi 'yung tipo na pwedeng bola-bolahin ang prof.

FRIDAY:
research-researchan sa library, lunch with ja, uwi ng cavite, inom ng biguerlai (try this!!)surfed the net, kwentuhan with Day, watched Foxy Lady ep 1, knockout!

SATURDAY:
nangapitbahay, kumaen, nangapitbahay, nangapitbahay, siesta, nangapitbahay, read a few pages of photocopies from research-researchan yesterday, knockout!

SUNDAY:
nangapitbahay, nagblog, read my McNaught book, watched TV, McNaught, McNaught, watched KC's special, McNaught, McNaught, read 2pages of photocopies, knockout!

MONDAY:
McNaught, luwas ng Manila, 30minutes late for my first subject. . .

. . .at dito na nagcmula ang ngarag fever!

(mondaystill: 530 onwards)
cut class (sorry parents!) para maglibrary (ahh). inabutan na kame ng closing. first time yan. nag out ako ng book. another first time., uwi ng dorm, McNaught muna, serious reading na!, knockout!

TUESDAY:
research sa net, gawa ng paper sa library from 1030 to 4 (finished a page out of 4!huhu), attend class, more lib. inabutan na naman kame ng closing. nakz. second time., uwi sa dorm, read handouts, write write write, panic! mental block, panic! read, write, write. . .
11pm - finished second page
~(2pages to go!)~
11 to 130am -type (thank God Ate Lala, one of my roommates, has a laptop!)

WEDNESDAY: DEADLINE OF POL.DY PAPER -11:00 am
130 - panic
130 to 330 - write, read, write, read, imbento, bola-bola, read.
~3rd page:done! (1 more!)~
330 - panic!
330 to 5am - imbento, read, type, super imbento, type.
~last page: ALMOST done!~
~shashi: lasing sa antok!~

sleeeeeeeeeeep (dont disturb!)

8am - woke up, breakfast, prepare for school
930 to 1050 - konting imbento, type, print, dat's it!
11:00 -tenenenenenen, submit paper! yipeeeee!

*sigh* sarap ng feeling.. kaya naman, last night wala pang 8pm, im on my bed, sleeping soundly and dreaming.

sa next pol.dy paper namin, due two weeks from now, i know better! para hindi na NGAAAARAAAAAG!

whew!

oh wait, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLA!

;)

Last night was an emotional night for some of us. Next Sat, a beloved will be leaving for Singapore to try her luck. Madrama ba masyado? That’s because our clan is not used to seeing someone from the family leave, especially in such a short notice. Ganyan lang talaga kame ka-bonded and anyway, life is a bag full of dramas diba? The last poem I made was for her nga pala. So ayun, my girlies were crying,ung iba mejo tinamaan na din kase ng tequila. I grabbed the camera and became the night’s camerawoman. The usually “iyakin me” find that there were no tears to suppress, really! Siguro dahil alam kong there’s always good in goodbyes. And I know she’s gonna be alright. . .

MyChristmasWishlist

Since malapit na din naman matapos ang first –ber month for this year, I had come up with my Christmas wishlist na. So here it is my dear love-ones, alam kong you’ve all been waiting for this (shit,tigas ng mukha!) and remember it’s in no particular order (nampucha! Sobra na!haha) :

· JudithMcNaught’s Almost Heaven
· Judith Mcnaught’s A Kingdom of Dreams
· Judith McNaught’s Someone to Watch Over Me
· Judith Mcnaught’s Something Wonderful
· Judith McNaught’s Tender Triumph
· brand-new camera phone! (‘yung mejo latemodel naman please?)

Para sa mga hindi pa nakakaalam ng halatang obvious na kaalaman, I’m a super fan of Judith McNaught. I already have 7 of her books (thanks to dear MICHY for my 6th!) and I intend to have all of them! Hehe.. The last item on my list will be very much appreciated too! Wuhoooo! That’s the spirit! Tandaan na Christmas is all about giving and sharing (on your part). Xempre dapat may tagatanggap din ng mga isheshare nyo. And I’m wholeartedly very uber willing to play the tagatanggap part. Pasayahin po ang mga batang katulad ko ngayong pasko.. hehehe

Thank you in advance! Merry Christmas! ;)

bon voyage!

for a love-one who is going through so much in her life right now. hold on. God is with you. we are here for you. i miss you.

The strongest of men, no matter how tough,
Loneliness in his heart, he can not bluff.
There comes a point when enough is enough.
You wonder if someday you'll ever laugh.

Heartaches, heartbreaks, surely are hard to mend.
Only you can bring misery an end.
If only the heart, to the mind will bend,
There would be no more painful scars to tend.

Time will come when it won't hurt anymore.
Happiness will come knocking at your door.
To you, now, life is becoming a bore.
You'll find home like waves that retreat from shore.

I do wish you return with renewed force.
I pray that things do not get any worse.
Lean back, just let healing run its course.
Hope you come back with no trace of remorse.

Go spread your wings, sail away, start anew!
Go wherever you are brought by your shoe.
At the end of the day, sunny or blue,
You'll find us patiently waiting for you.


. . . you're gonna be alright.

"Sorry, wala."

Kanina, while I was roaming around Quiapo, looking for pirated DVDs (sorry authorities! pag mayaman na po ako, original copies na po ang bibilhin ko), there was this lola na karay-karay ng isang batang babae, maybe her apo, and they are begging. In the corner of my eye, I saw them coming near me. Ayun na, kumalabit na si nene at nanghihingi ng limos. What I had in both pockets were 2 ube paper bills, 1 ninoy, 1 bente and not a single barya. Sa kalye, when I'm asked, sometimes I give, sometimes I don't: pag mahirap bumunot ng anda, pag wala akong barya o pag talagang nagmamadali ako. Pero always, as in always, I tell them in my politest way that I'm sorry. Back to the real story here.

I muttered "sorry" meaning hindi ako magbibigay. Nakakahiya naman pag hiningian ko siya ng sukli to my paper bills.

Kalabit ule.

I politely shook my head.

More kalabit.

"Sorry, wala."

To my surprise, biglang lumakas ang boses ni nene at sinabing (in Bisayan or Waray, i'm not sure, basta ganito ang thought),

"May pambili ka nga niyan ate, hindi ka man lang makapagbigay."

Touché.

Shi-noo away siya ni kuyang tindero. In short, umalis siya ng hindi ako nagbigay. A part of me ang gustong umalma dahil sa sinabi ng bata. "Ineng, hindi ko naman ata obligasyon na bigyan ang bawat pulubi sa daan ng limos. Hindi rin naman ako mayaman."
Pero a bigger part of me was screaming,

"Oo nga naman, tama nga naman 'tong bata na 'to." (sabay kutos sa sarili ko)

I am very much aware na kahit hindi rin naman ako mayaman, I am not deprived of my basic needs at kaunting luho sa katawan, na napakalaking swerte ko compared to that little girl and her lola. God wasn't smiling when I ignored these two people. I remembered the homily given by our parish priest weeks ago:
(again, not the exact words pero the thought was exactly this)

"Hanggang napapaisip ka, natitigatig at naaalarma to all the horrible things happening around you, there's still goodness in your heart. Ibig sabihin hindi ka bato. That's a good thing."

Why am I doing this post? 'Coz I had myself thinking afterwards, natigatig at naalarma naman ako with that little incident, with the girl asking for some help and with me ignoring them. That I realized nung umalis na silang maglola. In my heart, may kabutihan pa rin na nasa loob. The only problem is how I will be showing, giving and spreading this goodness in my heart.

To lola and the little chica, sorry! And I actually prayed for the two of you.
To myself, do better next time ineng!
:)

SuperGuy. . .

I doubt if you ever have a clue,
Every chance i get i still think of you.
In my prayers I've never forgotten to
Wish that you would think of me too.

In the conversations that we had,
I was delighted I made you laugh.
Hearing that sweet laughter aloud,
To me that was more than enough.

I can't help but think of the 'could-have-been's',
If I di'nt think twice following my whims.
In my mind I still have the 'what-if's',
The chances I once had and let slipped.

You used to be in the picture.
But now I have never been sure.
I just hope that somewhere in the future,
The emptiness in me you'll come to cure.


~cheboom! i used to mean this poem with all my heart and soul,. take note: used to! it's over, done with, finished! weehee! i'm free. . .superguy flies no more.gb:)

on thanksgiving day. . .

ON THANKSGIVING, WE CAN BE THANKFUL FOR MUCH
THE CHILD WHO IS NOT CLEANING HIS ROOM, BUT IS WATCHING TV, BECAUSE THAT MEANS HE IS AT HOME AND NOT ON THE STREETS.
FOR THE TAXES THAT I PAY, BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT I AM EMPLOYED.
FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY, BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG, BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.
FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK, BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM IN THE SUNSHINE.
FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING, WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING, AND GUTTERS THAT AND NEED FIXING, BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.
FOR ALL THE COMPLAINTS I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT, BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT, BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING AND THAT I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.
FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL, BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.
FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH THAT SINGS OFF KEY, BECAUSE SE IT MEANS THAT I CAN HEAR.
FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING, BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.
FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY, BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.
FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OF IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS, BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT I AM ALIVE.
AND FINALLY
THE PARTNER WHO HOGS THE COVERS EVERY NIGHT, BECAUSE HE/SHE IS NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
FOR TOO MUCH E‑MAIL, BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.

(http://www.uwm.edu/~ceil/funstuff/touching.html#9/11/2001_Story)

a blessing that i have run across this one! it's an eye-and-heart-opener for me.. grabe! sana everytime i will complain about how fat i am getting, or i have nothing new to wear for a lakwatcha, or pray for a new phone to replace my karag-karag 3120, sana, sana talaga maalala ko that i have read this! many blessings go unnoticed. pero andiyan lang sila. every morning, paggising natin that's a big blessing already! some people die on their sleep. we're lucky people na nagigising pa tau and thus have another chance to face the challenges of a new day, a chance to solve our existing problems.. be appreciative of these problems pa nga, kase it only means na napapansin tayo ni God, that He trusts us and our abilities so much na masosolve natin ang mga problemang 'yon. while reading this, sinusubukan ko hulaan kung anong klaseng blessing ang kasunod ng nauunang phrase, pero until matapos ko na basahin, wala talaga ako nahulaan. it means that i'm one of those people who live a life wishing for so many things that we often forget the things we already have. ang mga simple things that bring us the truest joys in life! sa mga prayers natin, imbes na "sana po ganito", " sana po ganyan", "bigyan mo naman po ako" "sana po, sana po, sana pooooooo!" why dont we try saying things like "thank you kase may pamilya ako, sa mga kaibigan ko, sa school na pinapasukan ko, etc etc etc." the list never stops! dahil ganyan ang mga blessings ntin sa buhay,never-ending, always pouring! we just refuse to see them even if they're already right in front of us. make everyday a Thanksgiving Day! Thank you Lord for today.. for yesterday and even for tomorrow. thanks thanks thanks!

"ABOUT ME"

Hi this girl is McShashi. =)below are simple facts about her. i once had this on my 'about me' section of my friendster account. and had it deleted, wala lang, for a change. pamisteryosa effect naman. hehehe. i decided to post it here because it says a whole lot about myself.

~i love veggies

~i luv reading romance novels

~im a harry potter,one tree hill and grey's anatomy fan

~a PRISON BREAK super fan.love it love it!

~i luv colors

~i laugh at the corniest and greenest jokes

~i believe in love&soulmates

~i respect ppol coz i also wana be respected

~i prefer being called 'shashi' coz i feel lyk i hav chinita eyes, in contrast 2 my big bright ones. *wink*. i hav long eyelashes,in fairness

~i believe in karma

~i believe in d saying that pipol are rily gud at heart

~im corny

~i luv justin timberlake (so much that it hurts. hahaha.. told 'ya im corny, and mushy pa.ahehe)

~i luv my OCEANS 12

~im jologs

~i luv my dearest cuzins

~im PROMDI province of cavite.

~i luv my INAY,my PAPA,my ATE soooo much..i wouldnt trade dem for anything in dis world.

~currently a junior college student

~i never get tired of eating anything that says food in it

~a sucker for sweets,cracker nuts,peanuts but not peanut butter,movies&series that would make me cry or laugh my heart out,my papa's cooking,my mom's spag&mac salad(i could eat this 4ever!)and burgers

~am a sleepyhead. masa... masandal knock-out.

~i enjoy watching tv series on dvds.(we don't hav cable)

~my room is a mess

~i always claim that im on a diet

~am clumsy

~i feel like i used to be a guy

~love to stare&daydream

~greatest fears:death,getting sick, lightning&thunder, insects &frogs

~i want to be a doctor when i grow up

~i sleep wd my eyes slightly open

~i love God and He's much more in love wd me

~i want to be a chef

~am bad with names and directions

~i talk when im alone

~i do not drink

~love my jurassic radio

~i am forgetful

~i want to be a singer

~i love to chew a gum

random questions

this is a survey i got from friendster.com. and i feel like answering them here. have a good day!

1.Are you Single?
~oh yeah.
2.Why are you single or taken?
~God hasn't revealed him to me yet.
3.What is one word to describe you?
~simple
4. How many close friends do you have?
~i have 3 fantabulous bestfriends and many friends.
5.Do you cry a lot?
~yeah.
6.Do you like being by yourself?
~yes. there are things i enjoy doing alone like shopping. but there are things i enjoy more when i do them with friends.
7.Do you like to read?
~yes.very much.
8.Do you like to sniff markers?
~no.they're not for sniffing purposes.
9.What are you listening to?
~right now there's no music playing. i hear voices of people here in the shop im in.
10.Do you like taking pictures?
~i would love to. but i don't have a camera.not even a cam phone.
11.Are you pale?
~no.just a bit sleepy.
12.Do you like kids?
~yes,i adore them. i wonder how they make people happy so effortlessly.
13.Are you still not over someone?
~im over being gaga thinking of him.
14.Do you think you will be married?
~yes,someday.
15.Are you weird?
~i do weird stuffs.everybody does!
16.Do you know how to spell?
~i won a spelling contest back in prep school. that counts?
17.Do you think you're smart?
~yes.
18.Are you annoyed easily?
~yes.by annoying people.
19.Are you conceited?
~no.
20.Do you like to dance?
~i used to.i'd like to be a singer.
21.What is your favorite movie?
~ever after.and many many more.
22.Do you like taking surveys?
~surveys with good questions only.
23.Do you get bored easily?
~yeah. and i don't like it.
24.What kind of tv shows do you like?
~i like reality shows. oh wait,i love grey's anatomy.and PRISON BREAK.and one tree hill.
25.Would you ever dance naked in the rain?
~no. i'd do it with clothes.
26.Who are you most anxious to see at your 10 year high school reunion?
~my ocean's 12.they're a big part of me.
27.Are you a messy person?
~let's just put it this way: i hate cleaning.
28.Do you lose things easily?
~not anymore. i learned to take care of my things.
29.Do you love your family?
~absolutely.
30.Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
~no.
31.Where do you want to live one day?
~sa city. but i also want to keep a house in my hometown.
32.Do you like talking on the phone?
~no. not a big talker over the phone.
33.Do you laugh at jokes just to be nice?
~yes.laughing is nice.
34. Are you a neat freak?
~im NOt.
35.Do you drink?
~no. not a drinker.
36.What's your favorite class and why?
~the best classes i had so far were Sir Neil's Lit and Sir Emer's Philo.they're amazing professors.
37.Do you hate someone?
~no.hating's bad.
38.Do you like to fight or argue?
~no.i am not the argumentative type of person.
39.Have you ever cried watching a movie?
~yes.plenty of times.and these movies instantly go to my list of favorites.
40.Do you lie a lot?
~occasionally.
41.If you were the preferred sex would you date yourself?
~oh yeah.
42.Do you sometimes cry for no reason?
~there's a reason when you cry.you just don't want to admit it.seriously!
43.Do you sometimes laugh for no reason?
~same goes with laughing.
44.Do you like the clothes you wear?
~yes.i wouldn't be wearing them if i don't.
45.Do you think you were an ugly baby?
~yes.i used to be a sickly baby.
46.What do you want to be doing right now?
~spend time with my dvd.
47.Do you like Valentines Day?
~yes. i love looking at couples on v-day.
48.Do you miss someone?
~no.
49.Are you jealous of someone?
~no.
50. Do you have a favorite place?
~i don't.
51.What famous person would you want to be with if you could?
~i would love to be friends with Bianca Gonzalez.she's just so awesome. fantabulous!

i wanna be . . .

i want to be an artist
and express the craziest thoughts in my mind.
i want to be an artist
whose creative thoughts make the world shout with pride.
...the artist who lives his life the way he likes it.
...the artist who just leaves his world when he wants it.


i want to be the girl
who can get away with just her winsome smile.
i want to be the girl
who turns everyone's heads when she passes by.
...the girl whose very ground she walks upon is worshipped.
...the girl whose wish is granted when she had her hair flipped.


i want to be a baby
who cries his heart out when he is upset.
i want to be a baby
who sleeps safe and sound when his needs are met.
...the baby whose only defense from the world is a giggle.
...the baby who innocently plays with toys in his cradle.


i want to be a bee that wanders around freely.
i want to be you so i'll know what you think of me.
i want to be everybody.
i always want to be somebody.
but for today, i decided i'll be me.
...grateful and happy that God made me me.