greatest fear

*i am terrified of getting sick.
*i am afraid of frogs.
*i am panicky of insects.
*i dread death.
*i am scared of lightnings
*I FEAR NOT BEING ENOUGH.

one quiet night, i was watching an episode of One Tree Hill when the words of the gorgeous highschool cheerleader Brooke Davis who seems to have everything at her beck and call struck me like a thunderbolt. "I am scared of not being enough."

that was one thing i never knew i was afraid of. not until i heard the stupefying words. to be insufficient. to be not enough. to be dumped for somebody else. to be left alone and hurting by someone i love dearly.

i wish to find the one who will hold my hand and assure me that lightning will not strike.
:who will teach me to stare straight at the eyes of death.
:who will crush insects for me.
:who will never ever turn into a frog.
:who will stay at my side when i am sick.
the one who will make me feel that i am more than enough for him despite my fears and shortcomings.

only then will i fear my fears no more.
:)