I am a bit lost

These past few days, I don't know what has been happening to me. Everything looks boring to me. Things I enjoy doing means nothing at the moment. I feel too lazy and so bored to walk, to talk, to cook, to read, to sing, to write, to clean the house (this one's understandable), to think, to smile, to crack a joke. This entry I decided to write, in hope that I could trace the roots of my sudden feeling of boredom, of nothingness. In hope that while I am pressing letter keys, space bar, enter enter to express how I feel, something would spill out of my subconscious and I would finally know what's been bothering me. I think bothering is not the right word. Because nothing is bothering me except the fact that I am not bothered by anything at all. That doesn't seem normal, to me at least.

Let me try. These past few days, nothing extraordinary happened to me. I attended my classes. I read what we were assigned to read in class. I ate my meals. I talked and laughed with friends. I walked home after classes. I slept soundly. Everything seems to be fine and normal.

So why am I suddenly feeling a bit lost in my little uncomplicated world? After rambling and ranting, I failed to answer my question. Well, if I failed in doing so, maybe I could suggest a few solutions to my own problem (problem? wrong word, but this will do).

Possible solutions to the problem which is not at all a problem:
1. Have a haircut. Do it myself.
2. Read the research paper we were assigned to read. It's like a lullaby.
3. Bang my head to the wall.
4. Have a cold shower. (Let's cross this one out.)
5. Open the fridge and stuff my stomach with anything I would get.
6. Chat with sex-deprived maniacs on the internet.
7. Pick my nose.
8. Run outside in the rain and see if I'll get wet.
9. Smell my stinking shoe.
10. Put my finger to the door frame, then close the door abruptly.

Maybe I really need to do something crazy. Something that would get my mind out of my boredom. Something that is out of normal bounds. Then maybe I'll find my way back to normalcy, to the normal ME.

Forgive me for being such a rotten company tonight. Things look brighter in the morning, so they say. I'll try to catch some sleep. Thanks for not complaining about my endless nonsense ramblings.


xoxo,
i actually don't know