10.18.2008

because i'm a girl

Dysmenorrhea is keeping me awake at this time of the night. Was it Whisper that actually said 'It's fun being a girl.' ? I know some girls who also experience this kind of pain, will agree with me when I say "Sometimes, it's not so fun being a girl."

Well, indeed, there are just some things I don't like (but not actually hate) about being a girl. I've been called/mistaken/teased about being lesbian several times. Let me get this straight: I AM NOT. I have nothing against them, gays & lesbians, because no one will want to get stuck in that kind of dilemma. If they will just be given a choice, they would choose to be a straight girl or a straight guy, and not half of both. Or will they not?

What I don't actually like about being a girl. For one, because I'm a girl, I can't just bring myself to walk to the guy I like and tell him how I actually feel. That is not a problem for some girls out there, I know. But for me, it is. It's a pity I do not have that kind of courage in my body. Some guys say that they would actually like being walked to and told that they are liked. Some are turned off by the idea. That's the thing. I am not one of those girls who are brave enough to take risks of whether this guy they walk onto is one of those who gets flattered or those who does not. There are times when I wonder about how things would be like if God made me a real guy. Maybe, I got myself a girlfriend by now. Because I'll have the balls to introduce myself to this girl, start a conversation, ask for her number then ask her out for a date. Maybe.

Secondly, the double standards. If this has been a law on this world, can someone from the Senate with good sense, pass a bill for its abolishment?! The thing is, when guys sleep around, we hear people say "Well, what can we do? He's a guy. Guys can't say no to temptations." But, when girls sleep around, they are called plenty of names. Bitch. Slut. Whore. And they get branded with the title. I am not saying that the world should be more understanding of girls sleeping around. In fact, I wish that sleeping around (this applies for both sexes) with other people, especially if you are in a relationship, should not be the trend. Let us spare the world of plenty of tears and heartaches. Let us not tolerate those men who go behind their partner's backs and jump to bed with other women, then they still have the nerve to walk with their heads held up high. Cut the thingy!

Thirdly, why can't girls just hang like guys in jeepney handle bars and enjoy the wind in their faces? Well maybe we can, but we'll surely get the ridiculous stares and whispered remarks like Is she crazy? or What is she thinking hanging that way like a monkey?

These are some of the things I do not like about being a girl. But hey, no complaints here about being one! After all, by being a girl, I have an excuse to cry at chic flicks, to roam around a shopping mall for hours and not buy a thing or to deserve a seat in a bus. Because I'm a girl. No ifs, whys and buts :)

2 comments:

Landor said...

...... i am so sorry to read this diary...

take care...

sharry said...

don't be sorry. i wouldn't have posted it if i do not want anyone to read about it. :)