for lack of sleep and anything else to do.

I only had 4 and a half hours of sleep. To some people 41/2 hours of sleep is more than enough to get them through the day, but to me, it's just not normal. I need 8 hours or more, but at 8:30 this morning, I could not go back to sleep anymore. Again, not normal.

So with nothing else to do before getting ready for work, I decided to watch DVDs. I thought about watching FRIENDS, because I figured Joey Tribbiani can make me cheer up a little bit. On second thought, I picked Grey's Anatomy because I am in the mood to cry. When doctors at Seattle Grace cut their patients open, I could only imagine the pain but it makes me cry. The sound of the machine when the patient's blood pressure drops and I know they are about to die, it makes me cry. When their loved-ones cry after they are told that the patient died while surgery, I cry with them. The point I was trying to make is I needed to watch Grey's because I needed a good cry.

And now I am writing. I am writing (and crying) for a coworker who was let go for reasons I will never understand. It had only been a few short months, but he became a friend. I am sad because it was tough and not understanding incomprehensible explanations make it even tougher. They could have warned him enough to give him time to prepare himself for what's about to happen. I am professional enough to understand that these things really happen. But in my own personal professional opinion, it was a hasty unwise decision. But if their aim was to send someone's self-esteem rocketing down, then they were never wrong to do it. How could they give up on people so quickly. I am sad and angry but I am still going to get dressed and go to work and suck it all up because I need this job at the moment even if it doesn't make me happy anymore.

I am grumpy. What do you expect, I only had 4 and a half hours of sleep.